Hey Grieving Friend,
Yeah, so there are times you want to dive into that grave yourself, aren’t there?
Months, years, and even decades later you still wonder why. I get that. Many of us on this unwanted journey wonder why as well.
Do you feel like you’ve been robbed? Robbed of a future. Robbed of additional family members you thought you’d have? And robbed of hopes and dreams?
And maybe you don’t know where to direct the anger that keeps you from sleeping.
I will not pretend I’m profound or spiritual enough to know those answers. The truth is, I don’t understand the mystery of God. But this I do know for sure: We serve a God, who holds each answer in His hands. And more importantly, He holds us.
Lean into Him, won’t you? Trust Him in the dark.
Trust Him with the next thing. Not the next day or even the next hour. Start by trusting Him with the very next thing that requires the attention and energy you think you no longer posses.
Time to get up? Trust that He’ll help you. Time to take care of the kids? Trust that He’ll give you the strength to do so. Falling down the steps of everyday life? Let Him catch you. Is time racing towards the anniversary of the death? Trust Him to get you through that day with your mind still intact.
God’s got you, grieving friend. And He cares about every little detail of your precious life. He’s wild about you. He didn’t do this to you. Rather, He sits with you. He weeps when you weep.
When you can barely crawl out of bed because grief has rendered you helpless, know that He’s there.
When you’re hanging over the toilet throwing up your grief, allow Him to hold you up.
And when the pain is more than you think you can bear, let Him carry it for a while.
Inhale slowly and exhale long.
Drop into His arms.
Let Him cradle you.
God’s got you.
Author, Grief: A Mama’s Unwanted Journey